Late Grandpa.;(

09.08.2012
We had another big lost of my Beloved Grandpa..
Everytime I flashed back the moment that we spent together..
The sorrow and sadness came back.
Ntg can describe how hurt I was when I heard the news around 8.30a.m on the black day..
The only thing that appeared in my mind
I want to spent the final moment with him..

Pa.. I miss you and love u so much..
Thanks for being my bapak..
U the 1 who babysit me when Im still small until I was in Kindergarten..
Thanksss..
And Im grateful to have such a lovely and caring grandpa..

IM BACK!

Its Been Months Since My Last Update!
Im back now.. Story will be upload soon by cpu..

Its Not A Good Year.:'(

1. BAD THINGS 16 JUNE 2012 - We were drinking beer and chit-chating at Uncle Ayung's Bench.. During midnight..a Suprising called had made us upside down.. My Cousin passed away.. Sad + Sorrow + Numb + Terrible Mixture of above feeling.. So we decided to go to Sandakan on that time but many of them disagreed.. We ended up drove at 6 a.m.. On the way we doesn't felt the lost as m uch as we used to be when we received the news.. But when we arrived.. Everyone Speechless.. Tears dropped.. We Are Having A Great Lost.. Leaster Dominic.. 12 Years old Boy.. A Handsome Boy... A Nice Guy.. A Good Child.. An Angel Of My Life.. Its been over 40days.. But I Love U Always and Forever Late Leas @ Babe @ Tarr.. I misssss U sooooo Muchhhhhh....

10 or 11 MArch 2012..

Me and my Honey 6th Anniversary...

Wow too many up and down in our relation..
But we can keep it up for these long time..
Im proud for both of us Honey..
Love U So Much Honey..

About Us..
We are not a romantic couple..
We dont have many evidence that showing that We are together..
We arent a lovey dovey couple..
We took too short time to know each other before We start this relation..
We fight A looooottttt...almost everyday..
I barely hear U say '♥ u'..
I moved in with U since Im 18.. Too young right..
I live my life with ur shadow when Im in high school..everyone scare to ask me for ounting..
U have been very jealous before..but now U say u dont care..
In the morning as I open mu eyes U are on my side..except U outstation or else..
In the night the last person I see is U..except «same as above»..hehe malas


The story of Us never end.. What coming next only God know how..

I LOVE U SO MUCH HONEY..
MUAHHHHHHHHHHHH....


Advice for these long relationship..
LOVE IS IN THE AIR..
WE CANT TOUCH IT BUT WE CAN FEEL IT..
WE HAVE THE INSTINCT AND WE KNOW IF HE/SHE LIE..
DONT REALLY TRUST IF HE WAS A PERFECT ONE CAUSE THATS MEAN HE HAVE SOMETHING BEHIND US..
IF HE WAS TOO DRUNK OR IN DANGEROUS SITUATION AND HE TELL US THAT HOW MUCH HE LOVE US IT IS TRUE..
BUT IF HE WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF AWAKE AND DRUNK DONT TRUST IT BECAUSE ALL HE WANT WAS JUST 'SEX'
WHEN WE HUG OUR BF/GF TOUCH HIS/HER CHEST..U KNOW THAT HOW HE FELT BY THE SPEED OF HEARTBEAT..
I STILL FEEL IT FAST WHEN WE ARE HUGGING..ekekeek..
THE MOMENT THAT U REALLY HAPPY AND U KNOW HE WANT U BADLY IS WHEN HE AWAKE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT..
HE HUG U WHILE U ARE ASLEEP AND KISS UR WHOLE FACE..HAHA i always peeking..cause if u awake he will stop

Theres many more I want to say but Botak is coming..and I want to play with him..hahaha

Im a jerk..

By the way..Im not really good in ♥ thingy..Im just sharing my opinion..its not 100% work on everybody..

One word..
LIVE UR LIFE AND BE HAPPY..evenyhough Im always stress..haha
LOVE IS IN THE AIR..NO FORCING AND NO OFFENCE..

MUAHHHH..CHALO BETEH..

Gadget!

New baby in the house!!!
That day I splurged on a new gadget..
Dunno y..
I think Ive been spelled by the evil..

EPIC

Hahah..' word by my lovely sista'

Thanks to my honey..
Maybe he understood that I've been work so hard for him and the company..
So she spent me dat..

Im stressful and tired..
I knew ppl will judge me and said that Im a 'pisau cukur'..
But I don't mind..
As I knew what Im doing and he sincerely bought for me..
Because I work in other company and I help him on the other side..
The word 'HELP' meant I don't receive a penny..
So for your info should I or Shouldn't I splurgr usibg his money..
Thats the point..

Well..
Im done talking bout that..
Just wasting my time..
As long as all my lovely peeps know who am I..
Thanks for the ♡ peeps..
Too many of them..muahhh..

And 1 thing Im sad to read my babe blog.
I knew she's stress and unhappy..
And we are far so we couldnt meet each other everytime she's in bad mood..
But when she came back I never let her go without meeting me first..
Heeheheh ♥ u babe..dun sad..dun stress.. Im always there for u..always..

P/s » MISSING MY BABES SO BADLY..:-(

Pictures of my gifts...

This is the pictures of my Valentine gifts from him and my bday pessie from my mum and dad..
Thanks u all..♥:-*

P/s : i misshh him badly..love u honey..be take care there..muahhh

My Valentine!!

Im shocked on my valentine day!!
He reaalllyyyy suprised me...

All day long..
He ignored me..
Even I try to be cool..
trying so hard..
at last My tears burst thinking this is the worst Valentine..

Morn-
He ignored me.. I texted he made dunno..
I try to be happy he tot Im crazy..
The worst bf u ever think of is Him at the tym..

Noon-
Im having Valentine lunch with my mom.. so happy togeher..
My mum is my best date!!
hehe haha

Evening-
He told me to drive go back home as no one in thr house n he went for gambling..
Im mad again and really said no one gamble on Valentine!!
No one gamble as everyone having dinner.. I felt no shame as I keep asking him whr is my flower..
< actually i dun want anythng I just trying to date him on that night>
and he said "ya x lama, 1 jam ja k"
so I waited in my house and damn.. everyone having their valentine dinner..
im alone;(

Suddenly he texted me..
"ney ambik sy"

so with a broken heart I fetched him..
suddenly he came out with a bouquet of roses n of course my fav lavender!!!!!
thanks honey!!!!!
and I kept my budu face.. acting angry and he said " senyum dulu bah... sudah ada bunga.. tapii"
and I waited and curious.. and darn!!
thr is only one flower so thts mean that is for his mother!!
sad face appeared again..
then he continued..
"nah sy bli td..sy fkir2 ko x pena ada rantai"
and he took out a gold box.. and said "mari sy kasi pakai"
he bought me a gold chain..!!
ya i knew its gold again..
as gold important nowadays.
I love it!!!!!!!!
ablnd he said " kiss dulu bah"
hahahahaa
so syok oh me dat tym..

and the flower is really for his mother!!
hahaa
he is a sweet boy..

sorry honey I din get anything for u..
Im sorry for being immatured sumtym,.
I do love u!!!
I love u so much!!
U are my sunshine.. My only sunshine..

Thanks for being my Valentine ney..
I love u ney...
Muahhhhhhhh...
Thanks for everything..
That night we dinner wit his family..
and watch mv together..

Lottttssssssss of story to tell...

dis year i've been leaving my blog for a long time..
its my BDAY dis February and also the Valentine's Day
For Everybody!!

my Bday-
nothing special happening..
but I feel blessed!!
Thanks Mum and Dad..
Thabks Granny..
Thanks Mama ty Dai..
Thanks Colleaguesssss..
Thanks to everyone who wished me!!
< sorry can't mentioned the name as toooooo mannny of u>
Thanks babesss, anne, mac, liz n tien2..
Thanks Fify And Ben ben..
Thanks to My Boss and the family member.. esp Ling and Elmer.. Thanks ling for the gifts..
Thanks family member.. many of them too.. esp Yen n Donna..
The last one of course my Honey.. thx.. short thx as u dont care my Bday..

Morning-
But Im happy thou as I woke up and U kissed me on the forehead and said "hapy bday ney. Love U"
but after dat all day long u mad at me..
Thats y I dont like to be working in the same roof with my love..

Morn till Night-
Kept received bday wishes.. Thanks everyone.. muahhh

Night-
My granny so weird asIm not happy dt day.. so She spent me KFC..
Thanks mak.. She celebrated me!!!! And Jeng Jeng Jeng!!
I received gifts from my Mum And Dad!!!!
Gold chain.. I love it!!!!
love u two!! muahh

Mid night-
He fetched me and said dont be sad.. U will get Ur Bday prezzie soon..
I dont care bout gifts..
Is just I want Him to be my gift.. at least spend tym for me.. but till now I din get anythng..
NVM..
as long as Im happy..love u!!

3rd Feb-
Im suprised!!
Aunty Inday suprised me with a cake!She and aunt Elaine sang bday sobg for me!!
Thanks both aunty.. love u two!

In the office-
They made a small party for me!!
Thanks aunty Afung, neng, aunty Nor, aunty Lene, aunty Elaine, Pei Shi, Mei2, jojo!!
Thanks and love u all..
Im happy with u all..
My honey spent all of us!! tQ

I smiled all day long!!

p/s - Thankssss soooo muccchhh Everyone !!!!!!! and Llllllooooovvvvveee youuu alll!!!! muah muah

Blessed..+)

I felt blessed and grateful for what I had achieved..
Thanks God..

Eveything terpelanting and terbalik and rush..
Thw thing is I need 26hours to done everything..
but i do get lazyyyy and end up rushing later..

been busy in the office..
in the house..
catching for party..
here and there..
for the open house..
here and there..
Tenom - Kgau..
Wedding to CNY..

OMG..
I need time and air..
to breath..

My Honey sick..
been worrying to much..
been caring too late..
unpack things..
EEEEVVVVVEEEERRRRYYYYTTTTHHHIIIINNNNGGGSSS...
Tiring me..

Feel blessed..
but on the same time..
I'm Stresssss out..
I need rest badly...

my mood is angry all the time...
but I felt blessed..
sleepless..
restless...

I felt sorry for my hubby...
I let out everything to him..

But nasiiibbbb he can stand it..
eventhough his words sometimes hurtful..
I Love U Honeyman..



p/s: Chinese New Year Kuai Le..=)

Goodbye 2011..wElcome Twenty Twelve..=)

Long Time Din't update..
Well been busy with X'mas & New Year..
Now busy with CNY..
That's the problem when u r mix..
Every celebration I need to celebrate..

short talk..
just wanna re-call what I had been trough for 2011..

-family condition
* so so..not so good n not too bad..

-love condition
* also so so.. sometimes ok sometimes not good..

-financial condition
* bad..i don't save too much money.. I needed more..

-friendship condition
* fine..but i seldom meet my babess..miss them so much..and new comer is here..little jayden..muah muah..

-career condition
* ok.. too much stress..

-academic condition
* done my Foundation..but will continue degree later..




that's all i can re-call cause waiting for momom from hubby now..

and super tired now..y'day just come back from K.K.. shopping all day..n drinking too little..hang over..haha..Kogutz...too stress out for the unpack luggage..hubby causing problem by not even buying anything..damn.. he enjoying his life and i'm miserable..=|


p/s : Merry Christmas , Happy New Year 2012 n Advance Chinese New Year.. =) muah muah bloggers..=)

Hallllloooorrrrr..

It's beeen a looooonnnnnggggg time I didn't update u my Mr. Bloggy..

hehe

It's kinda hard for me to steal some time for typing..
Been busy with family and Him..
cherish every moment bebeh..

weekdays I will going back to my real n 1St house..
most of the time I will be at my mama AkA my beloved granny house..
while waiting for my love to fetch me or I fetch him..

then He will be MOGINUM tapai with my family..
chit chat and blah blah blah..
until they satisfied..

For me the No DRINK n DRUNK in front of my family will be watching them and waited sambil marah2..

sometime I slept thou..

harggghh...

I duno what story to be put in here..
so many things happen to me lately..

I will grab another time to upload picture so long story can be shorten..

I will jote down something that come to my mind now thou..

1.I am more into Kim Kardashian now..still following Keepin up with The Kardashian eventhough watching it for many many times..very envy with Kim Fairytale wedding..=) wish to have 1..wakakak.

2.I am a blondy now..but the colour didn't really appear as the one my stylist showed to me.. kinda like it coz I am scare my hair colour turn to be a bit lighter than I am gonna be look like sick people..


3.He changed a bit as he only drink for 1 to 2 times a week and spend more time with me..which I kind of glad n proud with his achievement..been argued about so many things.. but times make it better..no relationship lasting without argument..happy relationship still having a bit misunderstood..we just need to be patient..


4.my economical side a bit worst this few month..which meant I need to save some money..a bit upset bout dis..

5.much healthier than the other month..

6.I get back my Mr.Mark n Mummy love..love them...




I think thats all for today..I;m reallly2 tired..last week I attended 3 party on Friday and 1 wedding on Saturday..so not enuf sleep and today work whole day and then cleaning only the closet or dressing room..I am taking 70% of the sloset..sorry honey..hehehe


P/S : Congratulation to Ben and Joyce for their wedding..thanks for inviting..and such a great couple..lovely cuople..waiting for ur bby now..XD

Done Lie To Me..

ehehe..
not dat he lie to me..

But this is all about my craziness in Korean Drama..

Just now is the final episode..

sad..
It's done..
But after all I love the happy ending..

LOve it so mucHH..
iT is about lying turning into LOVE..<3

I love everything about it..
the actress..
the cool actor..
the actress style..
OMG..
I am in love with it..

every Wednesday & Thursday night I will end up arguing with HIM to let me to watch it..
Every Sunday I spent 3 hours in the morning without cleaning the room watching thee rewind..

I am crazy..
hehe

but it is worth enough for me..

so next..

I am searching for the best facial treatment for my skin..
this is the time for me to love my skin and hair..
I need to care of myself..
any suggestion Pleaseee????


I am much stress than when I am studying..
too much for me to handle on..
Thankful that I have my mother to help me in everything..


Just a sec,
I am watching about money planner..
Damn I felt that I spend a lot..
I knew that is really bad..
After this I will try to overcome this matter..
I spent RM 150 for 2 days..
I think that is a lot..

Honey we need to cut down..

p/s: money doesn't come easily..think about it..

Relaxxxx....

Uarghhhh...
best..

my beloved hubby just did me a favor..
huhu
thanks my love..

my hectic schedule made me tired everyday..
so I asked him to massage me..

he did it..
I don't know what is the name..
he used glass to suck out the toksin in me..

damn hurt..
but it is worth enough..
I felt so relax..
I just want to enjoy my good night..
look at the pic..
so no need for me to bluff-ing..

hehehe

nites everyone..

lots of love & big hugs..
enjoy alice in the wonderland first..

Silent Night!

No sound or words since the last few hours..

Start from i yelling over him, and he yelling over me..

Turn into silent..

I know sometimes its gonna rain..
But honey can we make up..

I don't want u to go to bed mad at me...
I don't want me to go to bed mad at you..

We won't let it go for nothing..

He on the left..
I'm on the right..
A pillow between..

I made a mess on his table to attract for a little attention but it getting worst..

Silence..
Keep on silence..

Tonight..
Hate everything about me tonight.

Moody..

Sleep alone sometimes good..
No one beside me also sometimes good..
No hug during sleep also good so that I can close the window..
No goodnight kiss fine..
So I can have cream on my face..
I can fully use lappy without sharing..
I can have my own pillow..
I can have my own blanky..
Away from me..
We have black and white area..

We should fight sometimes..
We couldn't be happy all the times..

U mad at me..
Me too mad at you..


In fact......
I want to have the normal night..
I am alone
without the
chit-chat before sleep..
kisses..
hug..

But let it be quite for a night...
Solo night...

Kind of Fine...=)




Ref : Neyo - Mad...

Keburukan Saya..

1. Pen-jelaous Num 1..

2. Over manja..

3. Cepat terasa..@ Sensitive..

4. Soft-hearted..

5. Coward..

6. Tidak tepati janji..

7. Say 1 maybe will change to 2..

8. Pemarah cket..

9. Buruk perangai..

10. Rosak..

11. Pemalas..

12. Kuat tidur..

13. Pengotor..

14. Kuat pakai duit..

15. Tia boleh pakai..

16. Annoying..

17. Sikit punya hal jd besar..

18. X arah tujuan..

19. Easy to be cheated..

20. Too many bad side of me until it is not enough for me to explain more..


BUT

The good is I'm loving him so much.. He can accept my attitude..
Thanks Lo Vun Khong.

'I take a bow'

stop it might be good for u so that u can view what real world is..
cause..
I ever watch and try it..
too many times..

sorry..

Happy Birthday Neyy..

Happy 22nd Birthday to u honey..

it is the 6th time - one time that we are not together that we've celebrate it together..

I just wish that u will be a good boy..
Drink less and make more money..
All u ever wanted u will get it this year..

had two nights celebration that we were getting mad..
I do enjoyed..

Hope that more birthday to come that we will celebrate..
I love u so so much..
Day by days I am get to know the real u..

thanks..
and sorry...
for sometimes that I making u pissed off..
for my annoying attitude..

Love u so much..
May God bless u sayang..
Good luck in everything..
Hope all plan will going smoothly..

I love u neyyyy..
=)
<3

Happy Birthday again l.v.khong, my love..

Difference

My love life is different from others...
should I be grateful or not???/

If someone tell me how great is the moment they are in love..
I really thought that mine is different..

others :
eat together at any cafe or restaurant..

mine :
tapao and eat at home..=.=

others :
in the weekend..went to kk together..

mine :
he went to kk alone..and I will follow up after works by Tung Ma..

others :
have couple picture together..

mine :
we already couple for 5 years..and only have 3 picture together..its true..
itupun yg mabuk and trip to shang hai..

others :
fight for big matter..

mine :
today we argue early in the morning.. because he didn't see me sleeping beside him while he open his eyes...dat is not a matter for me cause im running late..stupidos..

others :
Sunday..they will hang around in the shop..

mine :
Sunday..sometimes he hang out wit his frens..sometimes he just tie me in the room and that is Movie Day for whole day..HBO..

others :
Boyfrens will keep buying things for their gf during birthday and valentine..

mine :
birthday also no need to give..valentine i have 2 bouquet only for 5 years relation..

others :
marry is wonderful..

mine :
i've been blame for don't want to get marry n without proposal..

others :
living with loving heart..

mine :
living with strangers and everyday is not the same..

others :
bf will let gf sleep 1st...

mine :
he must sleep 1st or not i will be awake and be force to sleep..

others :
sick is the sweetest moment..

mine :
hurt and pain alone..

others :
any wishes will be fulfilled..

mine :
any wishes will be delayed or not at all..




see the differences..
BUT
I will still grateful and be glad to have my love..
my Lo Vun Khong..
he tell me everything and be honest..
even about girl..
I knew but I remain silent..
indon chicks seduce him but he ignore..
hahahaha

watever it is..
I'm happy..
even I'm always membebel..
but he keep on accepting my foolish words..

"love u is the words that recently I heared.."

I love u haneyy..

=) be proud of ur love even how bad he or she is.. but if they love u for a reason.. or too sweet but in deep or behind u only others know what happened..or he keep on hurting and never dissapointed of his fault..or he love u for ur body..or make fun of u..or love u when u around but if u are not around he showing his darker side...kick his or her ass..we don't need asshole..I'm not having a perfect love..I'm not 100% sure he love me truly..but Im in love with his honesty.. if "he tell u he having sex with other girl accept him if he change but throw him if he smile"..hahahahahah
love is blind..
but if blindness of knowing the truth is not love..

LOVE..

thanks my love..

for..

stay with me for all these years...

cure my hurt..(tatap la ko pun ada bg sy hurt)

...

ermm too many till more than words that I can described..

actually..

I don't like u to pampered me..

I don't like u to be good to me..

Cause I afraid of..

Darkness..

when U not there...

Lonliness..

when we broke up..

But still thanks...

I love u more than ever..

how I hope time stopped at the time we are so much fun..

since last2 week..

U bring me anywhere we go..

which I'm not comfortable with cause we've been doing masing2 job..

face to face event in ice bar..

shopping..

u watch the FAST5 twice just because of me want it badly..

go fishing..

(i knew u care me..on the boat u kept holding my hand..can't walk around..u so protective..)

go minum tapai in mama house..

take me round trip..

hahhh..

wonderful..

what I want to eat..

no need to say..

U will give..

Kuitiau siham..(i knew u angry when I give it to others n ask u to get it 1 more)..punya jau tu..

nasi ayam SURIA..

chicken chop Rahmat..

abc..

babi bakar papar yg kulit saja..

sotong bakar..

udang bakar..

kfc..

pizza hut costing 150..paling budu..

bontot ayam..

bread with peanut butter saja..

milo with nespray only..

chun ken with nasi and shau rou plus sayur manis..

all of that..

always in front of me..

at night..

make sure me sleep tight b4 clubbing..

kiss me in a sudden..

but at last u kena tendang pg bawah..

cuz disturbed my sleep..

when i'm sick..

u don't care..

but u prepare medicine..

use ur baju buang hingus..

pity u..

but I knew i'm so annoying..

no need cleanthe room coz u will help..

(hope i sick the rest of my life)

really..

words not enough..

I saw the good one in u when u drunk..

but suddenly now u changed a lot..

thanks my love..

I love u so much Lo Vun Khong....muahhhh..

but

still i'm afraid..

so don't to be good to me..

sogdoubleod..

p/s: thanks my babes..anne2, alice, sandra.. for spending tym with me..+) luf the babes...appreciation to taiko jg..heading top many2 holiday...yeah2...+)

Addicted..

I'm addicted..

It's hard for me to let go..

It's hard to spent the night without it..

I just need it..

I need it everynight..

Before I close my eyes..

The only things can make me calm it's that..

I just need it..

Why should I let it hold myself..

Let me wanting it..

It make me fun..

It's clear myself from any stress..

It's the good thing I ever have..

Make me high in the air..

Sometimes I will cry if I can get it..

Sometimes I laugh when I get it..

The only things I can say is

It's the moon...

It's the star..

It's brighten my night..

OMG...






















































Korean Drama..
I need you..
U make my night calm..
I am addicted to you..
Esp.
Three Sisters..
So syiok the drama..
I catch it everyday..
I can stay awake just to watch it..
It's make me cry..
Make me laugh..
so shit sometimes..

XD..

p/s: don't misunderstand..hheeeheee..

Mother's Day..LOVE MUMY...=)

Me and HIM try our best to let our mom have the best day on Mommy's day..

I spent my whole day with my beautiful mamy..
I bought her a bouquet flower and some nutritious drink..

these are some snaps during the celebration...

cake bought my dady..tQ lovely daddy...

my apak..luv ya..


my family..=)
with the grandchild..=)
their mama..=D

mamy day..+)

LOVE MY MOTHER..
=D..
<3