HELP WANTED!!!!

HIS 21ST BIRTHDAY IS AROUND THE CORNER..
i'm so blur to choose a birthday present for him..

sooooo...

i need help from all bloggers to gif me some ideas to buy what present..

1.he already had a sport car n was 'updated'
2.he had watch...so expensive one...bt duno which gf gave him..
3.he had many branded clothing...
4.he just had a piece of jeans..
5.he had nike n converse shoes..ori one..

then wat else i should buy???

i'm so blur..help me..

he gave me more than i ever wanted..
expensive i-phone..
branded clothing..
car to used..
expensive bag..
gold n jewelleries..
branded stilletoes..

but i never gif him anything except hurt..
i'm so pity wit him..
i dun deserve him..
i want to put him as "FOR SALE"
but i still love him...
he gave me everything i wanted n never no..

i remember a day after me n him get together..
he brought me to have fun in kk..
lyk to celeb our together2 day la kunun..
haha
dat day im so not in mood..
all the way i'm getting so upset..
n i let him talk alone...
haha n i'm sleeping on her arm eventhough he was driving...
jahat me..
but really im still angry for wat he had done to me..
n everyday he tried to 'mengurat' me again..
but still my result is
UNSATISFIED!!!
xtually its me bringing him to kk but im the one who bad mood..
that night he went for clubbing..
because im still not in mood i rather sleep in the house than go club..
i waited him to come back because i really want to pumping that nite..
but i don't tell him i waited for him..
coz me myself cant reached his phone..
that make my mood more crazier..
i waited for him until 4a.m..
n i called him..
a woman answered n say 'jangan..jangan..eh ehe'
when i remembered dat freak ladies voices..i get mad..
after dat he sms me..he don't come home he acc his fren..chu lin..
i called again n said'ko blik skg!'then he shut the phone..
i really tot dat he was cheating on me...

i cried all night n slept at 6a.m..
at 9a.m i felt kissing on my face..from forehead to mouth..
n he hugged me tight..when i opened my eyes..
i saw him..
i neglect him n asking him to leave me..
he explained to me wat happened that nite..
he really drunk n chu lin's gf took his hp..
thr's no gurl in his house..
he reached his fren house at 6..
he knew i will mad at him so he force himself to wake at 9..

I DONT WANT TO HEAR ANYTHING FROM HIM..
HE FED-UP N SLEPT BESIDE ME..
i'm so angry with him..
but then my exercising mood came back..
i knew he tired but idc..
i still want him to pumping..
haha budu..
it's hard to awake bird if he drunk..
but i'm forcing..
after tired we both get back to sleep..
he want me to hug him sleep..
as usual if i didnt he will merajuk lyk a baby..

but when he snooring..
I LEFT HIM ALONE..
hiakkk hiaakk me too an evil..
i go brkfast wit aling n my 2nd momy..
haha
then went for shopping..
i texting him but he dont ignored me..
so i'm geting so sad again..
then..
when i reached home..
he still went for outing wit his fren..
but i still tot that is a gurl..
im started my emo feel..
i just want to go home..

when he arrived..he try to make me happy..
he said he went searching for a bulldog..
coz i want it..
but he cant do it as it needed to order..
he try so hard..
but still im zero emotion on him.
he get angry n said "hui jia la..sou yi fu.."

on the way to leave kk..
im started crying again..
he also upset n release his feeling to me..
then..near to melinsung i said i want to go thr..
he said 'my car so lowered..it difficult to pass'
but then i screamed 'i want'...
he took his hp n called to evryone to stop thr..

i love beach when im emo..coz the wind can blow my sadness..

i want to be alone but he keep following me..
then he said 'ko mau lepas perasaan ko ni kan..pcaya leh sy x curang..sy x mcm ko'......=.=...

then he laugh..he hold me..
then after dat ya im feeling good n in mood..
why so fast??? =.=
ya my mood always change..
i become happy again..
althought a bit sour in my heart.
then he gave me superb power amazing pumping..
nice..
wakakakakaa

i saw he trying so hard to cheer me up..
but i'm always let him down..
im trying to appreciate now but
IT"S TOO LATE TO APPOLOGISE<.>...

LUCKILY I'm still alive...

when he asked me " how can u passed ur driving license? "
i answered " i'm champion mah...tula i passsed it"
then he argue my answered 'u having a kopi-o license..u count how many times u crush my car..u got a dream to drive my fairlady...yes u can but after a few month training...'
i showed up my upset face to him n my heart burnt up with a word...
" TAMAHA "
hahah...that's my story before..
n now after sometimes i tot dat i drive more carefully..
but the true is it's just soso..
i think it happened because of mu clumsiness..haisss..

y'day...i drove to work as usual..
when i reached the round-about i can't resist the ppl who keep on crossing w/out gif me a chance to cross away..
so i just bravely to over take the way..even there are cars approaching me..haha
n suddenly...
a woman that noob also in driving..in a speed try to cross my way.
vreeeett..
my heart pumping faster..
but we haven't crash yet..
it's just so near n we will crash..
i push my break n so do her..
than i cont my way w/out seeing her..
then...

in the evening...
he gave me to drive a honda..
haha
with turbo engine..
haha
but it's hard for me to drive cos im too short..
haiihh..

thanks to him for treat me nicely..
even that we r in the process of separating...
thanks my love..
let me sing a song..
my love..
there's only thing in my heart..
nenenenennenene...

p/s: dun drunk n drive..
n dun bravely drive..
see yaa..=)

LeT iT bE & LeT iT gO..

speechless..

unsatisfy..

numb..

blurr..

sad..

lonely..

it's the feeling for those who broken-hearted..

BUT..

Is there anyone who?

happy..

feel free..

when they broke-up with somebody..

for my opinion...
just release ur feeling...
whatever happen just let it be..
and u'll relised someday u can let it go..
don't force/control some situation coz it will hurt u deeply..

cry n let it out..
so u will more relieve & cool..
keep it..
n u the one will bleed..


p/s: here not attn/attach to anybody...this is just an opinion..

heCtiC day!!! fuhhyoo

after work...n reached home...i saw my messy room n my shoes,stilletoes...
wahhh yaa..
damn messy oh...i decided to clean my room after i went out for dinner wit my lovely family..here some pic..xtually only one..huhu

arrived home around 9pm, i felt so lazy to clean up my messy room..by then when i saw my momy make up tools..i;m heating up to create something pretty..haha
i want to make up my lil sis n we do some photoshoot..haha

DIRECTOR: CHI2
MAKE-UP ARTIST: CHI2
PHOTOGRAPHER: CHI2'S MOMMY
MODEL: FIFFY & CHI2

FUN FUN FUN DAY..YEHAAAA

but finally i arranged my stilletoes juga..coz really messy ordy..haiiya...tired o..gtg n slep 1st..muahhh


p/s: clean is much more better n felt so comfy..haha..wink'

ConFrOnT.T..

Honest to have a happy life or lie to make a sad to happy situation?

hard to detect someone feeling ya...
either they like it or not...
we just can predict but we still not confirm it..

when a time u have the chance to talk n be honest..let it be...forget bout the impact..

u will feel much more better after dat..

i lost everything when i don't realise it..
i tot when he try to take me back n separate louis from me..
i really tought that his love towards me as big as ocean...as tall as mountain..
but all i knew now that it is wrong..
deep in his heart there are no more me..
im so dissapointed..
but ya..
it is because of me..my fault for being so cruel..so nasty...so naughty..
and now i deserved this kind of life..
i lived with a man that only pity on me..and live a life w/out love..
am i happy?
ya..i do so...on my physical..
in my mentality...it is hurt...

what else i can do?
as im happy with him..
and i still love him..
i am the mistress...
but i should accept it..
maybe time will cure everything..

sayang..u ask me to stay until i can't stand it anymore...u r not bad..u r good..ya everyone blamed on u...but the truth is my fault...i will stand until the time end...
maybe sooner or later i will leave..to give u a space to live w/out my control...to let u have a new love..just be patient and wait...we will separate..i made my mind to put an expired date for our relation..so that u will be more happier...

now...he don't even have mood to hold my hand..to bring me for outing..to hug me..to kiss me...to sleep beside me..to cheer me up when im crying..all he can do is smile to me..make me feel comfort n warm..n protected..but true...i can't feel any love again...all he said was true..he can't force himself any longer...but i knew he try even that is too hard for him...all that he want is a lil freedom n care..he need a space to breath...but now he gave me a chance to not too depending on him..so that when he with another girl i won't get hurt..

it's already too much for u to help me..
it's already too many u care me..
it's already too long for us together..
it's already a lot of love u gave me..
but me never give u more than a word as u needed..
I DO LOVE U..
I DO WANT BE WITH U UNTIL THE END OF TIME..
I DO TO BE UR WIFEY,GF,FREN & LOVER..

but u should have a better life w/out me..
i dun deserve u since we known each other...
4 years meant a lot to me..but hurt a lot to u..
i knew that so i decided an alternative way in our relation..

sayang..wait ahh..u will be happy soon...=()..T.T

oOpiNiOn....

!st : MoThErz DaY
mom's day is special than our own b'day...coz w/out mom we won't see what the real world is...is it??? sometimes i do 'tebal telinga' n 'keras kepala' with my mom but deep in my heart i knew i love my mom...love u mom...muaccckkkss...coz 1 day i will be a mom too...;)...thanks mum

2nd : dady have to work hard..
why do some ppl so stupid that they act their father like a slave...ask their old father among the age of 60-70 to work n support their young but palui son or daughter..as they can still have energy to work...why just they ket their parent to just resting until their last breath..I HATE CHILD THAT HAVE THE SATAN MINDED>..really..some old man or lady sitting on the road...can't do anything...bringing their things...sleep anywhere that can prevent them from rain...move one to another places...damn man....whr their kids?? they born them for wat??? as im concerntrating on my job...came an old man to the office n ask for job...he was 75 years old...but still looked tough...then my madam ask him ' u have 8 children n whr they all now???' the old man said 'my child need to fed their children too, so i must work for my own food'...damn children...just a father they cant affort to feed..stupid child...with sigh we have to reject him as he cant do any hard job..but luckily my bos so generous n gave him rm200..then..who knew the apek jual ikan?? he start selling fish using his bicycle ovet 10 years...n now he is too old..but still he continue his job..on our way back home for lunch...me n my honey saw him on the road...we try to approach him cause my honey told me to buy all his fish n veges...hahah we use car to approach him but he went away more fater...so with or w/out my approve..my honey ask me to went out from the car n bubut him...aduhh..angry but since he begging..so i have too..haha he dont want to receive the money cause all his goods finishes ody...but i still gave him n turn away..but he raise hand n gave me keropok...haha i scared he will give the money back so i ran away with my heels...OMG!!!! my honey to kind but he rather sacrifising me too..gilak2.. so...the point is I LOVE MY DAD...n will give him money...let him become relax...love u dy..


3rd : bag too heavy...
why ahh now student need to carry beg weighing 6 kg n above...I felt pity for them..y should them having such a big burden juz for studying...they not an adult..they just a kid..so...I LOVE MY LIL SIS...muakhhh...love u fy...


4th : he away from me...
my bro is now try to be an independent guy...go somewhr he doesn't suit wit n finding job thr...he lived in horror...but i knew he should do that to be a man..i knew he can..everynite i slept wit his voices near me...but now...silence all around me..ben i miss you...love u ben...muavvvhhh..




p/s : LOVE OUR FAMILY iS MUCH MORE PRECIOUS...sayang kamu...emmuahh..=*

ClUbBinG.....syok or fan??/

huh felt so tired now...tambah2 lagi kagutan...hahhhhrrghh...
now waiting to wantch car's parade...
so juz type in my opinion on clubbing....adehhh
sometime i felt syok when clubbing...but sometimes sucks diz..
y'day i went kk with my sayang...coz got fren b'day...c seng2 tua uda..haha sorry seng i kasi kena u last n8...huhu

arrived kk then tulug until nite...went momom awhile then get rdy for the nite...make up n all larr..dehh banyak bunga2..
huhu
then we headed to the bed..
duno y i prefer the bed diz...coz not so hectic n too classy la mayb..n the band damn rock...love to request song..
i minta puji abit la...dun want beer diz..haha want liquor aja...luckily la my sayang got money..haha
last nite i took rum..tula my babe kasi try2 me da mango bacardi..dat's y i kinda in mood whn drink dat...haha b4 i ever tasted chivas n long island..but damn it's not suit wit my throat oh...so kick bah..
so last nite whn my sayang with his fren n some white man siping their beer im wit my pown drink...huh drink3 until 3 big glass n mix wit beer..my sayang jie came..n we getting hot neh..n i saw sharon..she's superb preety...i told my syg go kun her but wit her status nw they dont dare..haha
unfortunately whn i started to high my syg want plg..haiyaa..potong kick...i wish thr more nite like dat...huhuu
bah besa la guys whn high2 diz...membawa plg aja..haihh.
the next morn..i woke at 6 diz...then vomit alot...im damn exhausted...
nasib my sayng love me la...he brought me pizza n i ate a lot juga...then shopping...
hahaha...
we watched ip man 2...my sayng fav movie... but truly im oso crazyy wit the mv...love it...thumbs up...
n i realised dat ip man was bruce lee sifu...wowow..
then heading bck to kgfu...i tot want see the parade wit my babe..
but tired of waiting my dad...
still not reach home...haiyakk..
n still waiting...god help me..
hehe

astaga...lari topic pula me kan..haha ya xtualy..clubbing also based on our mood la..for my opi la...hepy thn da nite will rock...but if u lazy2 n scare2 to police thn u will have bad bad nite...

now my sayng going to be businessman..duhh..
his time will only attn to his business..n im gonna be tarnished from his heart...haiih...it's real dat guy more into career..
but i wish i could done somethimg on him..
i hope u all will give more support to my sayang business..later will post some pic...


p/s: i promised a lot but done lil...sorry...i hope i can be better...hope so..=)))