PaTiEnCe....

im thinking isit too hard to b patient...arggghhhh...even dat it is HELL HARD...but i need to so dat me n my ney relation will keep going on....damn....it is not a big deal if ur beloved one can celeb some important event wit u...haiiisss..im really hoping dat i can thinking lyk dat...it's not ez to b alone during ur anniversary and X'mas celebration..i dun lyk to b alone!!!!!!
i hope i can b a God juz for once to make sure my love stay wit me....
UNFORTUNATELY....
I can't ctrl him...i cant do anything to let him stay....i knew it's hard...duh.....SAkIT!!!! ATIII!!!!
knowing dat he willgone make me cry whole n8...im really hoping he can bring me along....but
situation doesn't really suit for him to bring me.... i knew dat he still "on the way" or more ngam is trying to get well wit us relation...after hurt by hurt i gave him...it's not ez for him to accept me fully...wat else i can do??? than b patient n stay strong...how hard it is i still need to wait & bcum his MOST WANTED TYPE OF GIRL OR WOMAN....he has his dream girl...and i wanted to b da gurl datplaying in his mind...leaving me is not a big deal for him cuz im not his main purpose of living...chehhh...tu ayat....hehe but it's true...im his num 4...i tot so..
for him.... 1.his own self...
2.his fairlady...even scratch a bit he oso bad mood lyk hell..
3.his family...his family's option and decision is important to him...
4.i hope so is me la...wakakka...cuz he damn luf me...kunuk...yg mcm confident btl ba.

i juz hope him to have fun thr and do watsoever things he want...as long as he doesn't forget me...ikikik...i damn luf him ohh....now im very disapointed for ever hurt his feeling....mayb if i dun do dat he sure tambah syg me kan...btw wat else i can do.....happened w/out my brain turning 360 dgree...damn!

long story short....im now just have to b patience...keep on waiting him to love me again....do the best to amaze him...

everyday seems lyk we guin thru great relation just hope it will retain...

uikkkk...day after 2mrw is CHRISTMAS ..and OUR 3RD ANNIVERSARY...me n my ney..hehe
juz can celeb wit my small2 family...gotta post da events on dat day...on 26 of dec will b my cuzzy memel wedding reception...must enjoy so wony cry during da day cus missing my beloved ney....duh lo vun khong...u leave me lehhh...hard oh neyy...hope 4 days pass so soon...a.s.a.p is better..so i can be relieve when my dear home ody..haha i must punished him buy me stuff from
singapore..huh biar dia...gotta badly missing him tu....aiyo...

Circumtances of life are hard to predict...sometym we are at top but sometym might at below...just lyk rolling ball....but da most important is be patient and live ur life.... I accept my disaster once ago...it's hurt me badly...but after dat i saw light dat lead me into soso life...now im happy..even bakal kena kasi tinggal..hehehe

ahhhhh....duno wat to say ody lor...i saw sadness n happiness at my side of true real life....

yang penting chill wit ur love ones.....waiting him come back...huhu XOXO>..