huhhhhhh...

It's not good to be demanding..
YES
I KNOW!!!
truly I din like ur planning at all..
I knew u will forget about my bday..
like years before..
and when everyone else talking about the planning for my bday
u said
' oh ya ka bday?mahal ba tu d krk..buat apa bikin..d rumah saja la'
ngaiiiiiiii...
ermmm duno wat to say..
im not demanding but..
I wish u will remember it and make it my happy day..
U urself go krk every night..
and
now I think u might have ur own reason/\
but
damn
u forget..
thank you la..
I din have any spirit for my bday already..
thanks gugu,aunt elaine,pei shi whom plan everything for me and rmbr me..

but
for sure
I don't want to celebrate..
I just wish to be my family..
love u all..



P/S : Im not trying to blame him or offending here..
But I just want to release my heart feel here..
sorry
for being so kiddy..

Materialistic...

Am I?
I think so..
But with my own efforts and hardwork ok..

I'm craving of some material item and unmaterial..
haha
It's been awhile that I can't stop thinking about the things..
duh..
and then
with the help from CLEO magazine that he bought last week..
I've read about
SAVING TO BUY!!!
that is what I am crazy of now..
I've been saving..
Even though I have many things to buy
By then
we make a saving..
Hopefully I can accomplish it..

I've been using his money times ago
and
NOW
it's my turn to earn and buy..
fuhhhh
tired of earning and digging..
BUT
I've learn how to be independent..

It's hard but with my own
tears,
sweat,
blood,
uglyness,
time,
I now realised how important are money is..
So
It is worth to balance my money..
and
Buy thing for my own..
hahahaha

Hopefully
It will continue..
all my effort will be repay...

Things to aim!!!!!!!!!

1.Pug
BUT
if and only if I can take care of it then I will buy..
cause I know who am I
I take or buy
and then I leave it die alone..
I AM LAZY!!! hahaha

2.FUJIfilm Instax Mini
BUT
I need to think again if I really needed it cause there are lots more thing to buy..


huhu

GIRLS ALWAYS A GIRL WHO HAVE MINDSET AND AIM WHAT TO BUY>>



p/s : Don't be too obsess like me..buy important things 1st!!! hahaha

SHine and DUll...

today..
even thought
I am ugly but I manage some reading..
I read my friends articles..
and many love problem appear..
I felt bad..
Me too have big trouble in love by the way I cant face it too much..
its hurtful..
LOVE..
FOR ME..
EVry little things happened in life
may have the reason and effect..
so do love..
we always trapped in love things..
i hope i wont but it will happened
whether u want it or not..
some got love but there will be no 100% satisfaction or perfection..
why?
because ...
many have their own reason..
LOVE EXIST..
LOVE HURTFUL..
LOVE come and go..

p/s: my friends..my cousins... be strong..cherish the love..even it is hurt.. even it is killing us.. or make us gone crazy..remember it.. keep it in deep..cause someday somehow when we found new love..use it as a weapon to have a happy love.. by then it will hurt again but still when we die we have a rememberance of love.. be happy and when u sad thing about this... if we hurt or sad because of love between unuseful people why don't we share our love to those who needed love..e.g african..victim of world disaster.. hahahahaha just joke... but then i know u all and i know the feel... btw be happy...=)))))))

lots of love,
chi2..xoxo
21.01.2011
(signature not necessary for printing material) ...even it is not printed..hehe

UGLY DUCKLING!!!

dAY by day..
I'm feeling like I'm more uglier...
I became darker..
became more bau..
no taste in fashion..
i wasted my life..
in work..
I dunno y I couldn't stop working..
when I'm free I will be stress..
Then after work..
I will be more stress..
oh goshh..

I am ugly and worst...

I need to change!!!

QuEsTiOnAiRee..

1) Name: Alferalyn
2) Birthday: 2-2-1992
4) What u wish to get on ur birthday: MONEY OR LOVE>>>FaMILY
5) Most tension matters nowadays: Who will in charge of my job??
6) Things that want to do: Travel, rest, and lay in his arm..
7) Any people u like : MANY!!! love them too
8) Out with who u feel the happiness + joy: My MOTHER! n babes..
9) What would u do when ur friends quarel: keep silent..I'm not really good in persuate..but try to slow talk..
10) Want to go where with others: Go for a vacation...like BALI..
11) Christmas want to do: Eat, Pray, Sing and Dance..
12) Wants to celebrate Christmas with who: my family and him..babes need to be with their own family too..
13) Doing what recently: Blogging..
14) How many siblings u have: 3
15) 1 Favourite English/Chinese Song: undescribed...cos too many..
16) Favourite Colour: white and black..
17) Do u flush water after went for toilet: if pee..sometimes
if more than that...MUST..
18) Like Male or Female: BOTH..no exception..
19) What u want to say loudly: I want money!!!!
20) Dares to go toilet at midnight: TILL now sometimes I don't dare..so need to wake him up...
21) Who u hate now: nobody...
22) What u like to do now: sleeppp...freaking tired and sleepy..but can't fall asleep w/out him..
23) Sleep look nice or not: ask him better..he always complaint I will smack him..huhu
24) The time now: 11.45pm..late
26) Body Weight: 37kg..too thin..i need to gain..
27) Today's weather: HOT IN HERE..
28) What u want to do after busy working: TAKE A BATH...ALWAYS tired after a busy day..and need massage..
29) What happen after insomnia: Tired and sleepy..exhausted to work..
30) Will u bedwetting at night: I end it up when I am 6..
31) Will u drool at night: must be No..
32) Have eaten supper: NO>.feel a bit hunger...slrrpp..
33) Happy things recently: I spent time equally with my mom and family..n him..
34) Do Freedom important to u: Yeahh...BUT sometimes protection do better..
35) Who u think is the most sexy among ur friends: Many ohh...
36) What do u think u are stupid or smart: A bit stupid not too smart..
37) Do u like Dad or Mom: Of course both...I love mamy and dady..
38) Who u want to see the most right now: MY honey..='- n family...mom and dad...
39) Do u like to watch drama: Yeaa..BUT sometimes hard to catch up..
40) Do u brave enough to tell the person that u hate "I Hate You"?: I'm not sure..I need to improve my braveness..

++Extra Questions++
When u intend to get married: after the age of 20 and above...but we can't determind coz sometimes thing happened beyond our expectation..
Do u like ur life: YESSSS!!
Do u believe Tarot Reading: not too into it...maybe just to predict..
Something u do before going to bed: smell my Bf underarm odour..
Ur idol: MY MOTHER!!
Favourite Season: SUMMER!! island again..yeah yeah
Places that wants to go: JAPAN..HK..SG
What kind of character u hate the most: ego..arrogant..childish..pengecut..
Do u smoke:ever..haha but not as habit..n shisha besttttt..
Do u drink: rarely..im not a drinker..
Do u cry often: YESSS..im emo baby..
Do u smile often: unless im tired or stressful..
Wants to sleep until what time: late afternoon...too stress these days..
Who u choose between friends and lover: based on situation..but BOTH!!!!!!!!
Which will u choose between chance and fate: CHANCE..
Do u very narcissistic: ermm...am I?
Do u have piercing: Yeahh..thinking of belly pierce..
Were there many question: hope to end up fast...
Do u like to eat ice: YESS!!
Do u happy now: CERTAINLY>>
Who u care the most: my family,friends and him..or he care of me..
What is the most important thing in the room:bed..stuff e.g my precious thing..my make up tools..my cloth..my watch..etc...place to keep my personal stuff..
No friends, how would u do: I will be lost...and lonely..
If an angel give u a desire to achieve, what u want: a girl live in fairytale with no problem..
Do this problem a waste: Yeahh..
Favourite fruit: Honey dew..Mango..those with nice taste..
What question do u afraid of when people ask u: What is ur height?='=
Do u like the snow: YEAHHH....but its too cold..
What u want to be on ur next life: Become more holy and more hard=work..i admit that I am lazy..
Do u like to wait people if u are free: hahhaa.i think most of thr tym ppl wait for me..but sometime i don't mind waiting..

HATE THIN!!!!

Recently I ate much small portion..
I dono Y am I hate to eat..
I'm hungry
BUT
I'm choosy
....
Many people worry about my getting loss weight..
I never realized it until my family and HIM mad at me..
They really trying their best to fulfill my wanted but still it decreasing..
Everyone talked..
Said bad about me..
But that's true..
Can U imagine that I can fit in my 10 years back short..
MY cloth getting loser..
I;m so sorry for making u all worry..
By then I will try to gain a lot..
I will n promise..

I really feel bad..
I also not interested being 'wait and see' when I am eating to make sure I finished eating..
Weird betul oh kena tengok makan..
Like I will throw the food..
I need to said "sy mau muntah sudah" then they released me from the punishment!!!
AmBOI!!!

How I can stand it..
My mom and grandma will take food for me and force me to eat in front of them and no TIPU!!
They cooked what I want..
They don't force me to finish it
BUT
They asked me to eat and eat..

He will wait me at the dining table until I can muntah..
BUY me everything I want to eat as long as I finish it..
By then..
I am very scare to eat for more than 2 days the same food..
He rather wait the CHICKEN CHOP cooked in front of the shop and look at me finished it..
IF NOT..
no mercy for me..
For the next hour I will asked to eat again..

Sometimes I angry with their attitude but think back they are care for me..
what's funny is..
Sometimes I can force anymore I keep all the rice in mouth and throw which I can't swallow again..
hahhahaa
but I caught up..='=

BUT
I WILL RELEASED!!!
AHAHA
I'm going to start studying so I will be far from their enforcement which sometime make me suffer..

BTW>>>
Thanks for the care, effort, and love momy,mamak and U,sayang...
I will gain weight okay..
I know U are stocking supplement for me to bring tomorrow..
OKOK I will take it..
NO worry...Be happy....

U all take care too...
muahhhhhhhhhhhh...=*
LOVE U ALL>>>>>>



P/S: Don't annoying when they treat us even bad or good..coz sometimes it might be a good thing for us..XOXO

What's Wrong?

Do u ever been ashamed or laughed because of u try to use correct english?

I do..

BUT

for me there are no wrong to use it..as nowadays mostly people will use english to interact..

I do scare that what people gonna respond to us if we use broken english or trying to correct it..
By all meant when we are trying there will be improve..

But what I received is only shameful..
HOW COME?

I think people need to evolve even though u lived in kampong or u are chinese it doexn't mean u can use english..

I'm so distracted when I've been laughed by others..


P/S : Sayang...I know u have money but try to improve urself not keep laugh at me while I'm trying to learn.. .!. FOR U!!

Last Day in 2010!

I really had a great time with my mom y'day//

We spent tym together..

we went to saloon and dye our hair..hahaha

then my mom asked a hairdresser to manage my hair..

really thanks to my mom..

I love u mom...

Sorry can't countdown with u mom..

I had a not so good day with him//

Donno y Im so moody with him..

Maybe because he planning to leave me..

Damn sad..

Luckily I have Vivien and Sandra to make me full blast and happy..n vui too..

thanks darl's..

But finally he appear in front of me..

The funniest thing is he sikit lagi accident coz his car clock was damaged..

because I warned..

"after twelve break"

luckily he came and wished me..

LOVE U sayang..muahhh

Last day in a year time to refresh bout all we did in a year///

P/S : regret...accept and forgive...=)

GooodBye 2010 Helloooo Twenty-ElevenT

I wish I could do all this 'Chores' in this new year..

1. MY family relation will be get better...I love u dad,mom,ben and fify..

2. I'm not 'jual ikan' too spent time with my babess..

3.ME and him will be together till the end of time..

4.I can be a good girl..

5.I can finished my education with flying colours..

6.I have more money...

7.I will be more hardworking..

8.MY dad and him will change attitude..

9.LOYAL to him and GOD..

10.I will varnished all the bad things in me..

This are not much so please help me to get it..I don't want fortune but all I need is HAPPINESS.