Tears..

Tears keep flowing down my cheek..
Hard to accept the fact that he had someone else..
I'm standing there..
Listening to the news..
Spoke out by his own mom..
I'm speechless..
I'm burning..
Finish everything..
I'm done..
Life must move on..
It's True ty Inday..
I shall let him know that I've already change..
Face the world without him..
No more him..
I'm holding my tears..
Try to wake up..
But it is a fact..
He with somebody..
Alright..
I gotta tell him..
We r just fren..
Eventhough I still love him..
But I can't hold him as I have to think bout his gf feel..
It's the end of everything..
From we..
To me n u..
From 5 years relation..
Now it's end..

-the end-

Welcome..

I quit from work..
Leaving my house..
Far from him..
Try to be independent..

That what I did now..

WELCOME
to my new life..
As a student..
As a growing lady..
Without my love by my side..
Without my mamy dady by myside..
Without my Ty inday..
Driving by myself..
Learn to be independent..

I miss u a lot sayang..
I love u..
Deep deeper deepest..
When we r far..
I can't sleep without u by my side..

unpredictable...

u said dat u r happy when i mentioned to u dat im going to cont. my study..
u said dat i'm really not understand u..
but then u shut ur mouth..
u speechless..
nothing to say...
no smile on ur face..
it just that wherever i go u will follow me..
when i arrived to a place..
i looked back n thr u r behind me..
b4 this hugging is not ur interest..
but last night u keep on hug me until i can't breath..
luckily i dun die..
i really dun understand what's on ur mind..
u did wat i ask u to do..
but u keep silence...
horrow...
is wat my feeling now..
i made up my mind to study as u keepppppp push me to do so..
everyday u said..
'bawa pantat ka p cari kerja! pg la skola..pkir sal masa depan.'
but now when i really want to go..
u make such a dump2 dummy attitude..
that sometimes i just want to tear u to two parts..
really meradang..
wait for me...
wait me to come back..
i will be back..
when im free i will find u..
me too hard to leave..
but i have to..
everyday when i wake up u the first i saw sleeping beside me..
before sleep u the last one i see n chit chat wit me until both of us no sound...
it not dat i want to leave..
but then when i think back i should learn to be independent..

after this..
i will go..
away from u...
sleep without u..
makan without u..
but
still
i can't live without u..

I LOVE U SAYANG..

Little Castle & overhauled myself....

overhauled myself..hehe from long to short hair...

before it was straight as the pic on side of this

blog...then...curl...after that short..i done it

for only...

4 months..huhuhu

LITTLE CASTLE..

dis was my mum's theme to decorate our house..

mamy named it as above..

i felt so warm everytime i reached my home...

mamy really great in designing...]

my mum's creativity i showed here coz our home will always have different design...

esp when mamy on holiday../

all made by my mamy...

designer: clara..XD

bedtime story....

this is not same like the mv yeah..
it is my story..
hehe
ermm
i duno la wat happen to his head?
everynight merajuk...
sometime benci sia mau layan..
if i dun accompany him till he sleep..
he will keep calling..
if i'm answered he will said 'salah num' then text me..'x tahan gaya ko la'..'xdpt tdr la'
whn i'm thr..he will keep mati2 ask me 'bla plg?'
tp funny juga la u kan..
if want sleep must garu2..
sometime me too can't sleep w/out him..
if i malas want scratch him..
i leave my bulu kaki tajam..i meant i don't shave it...
then ask him garu use my kaki..so i no need to scratch using my hand or moving..
hahaahaaa
so everyday he slept 1st baru i jalan..
early in the morning..
i need to go thr at dawn wake him up at his gor2 room then help him pindah blik..
aiya...
mcm my anak oh..
but i love the most about him is..
HE DON'T SNOORING...
haahaa...
ur manja make me happy jg la..
huhu...

winduhhhhhhhhh...

i miss my home.
i miss my dady.
i miss my momy.
i miss my fify.
i miss my bed.
i miss my ben.
i miss khong2 jR.
i miss him.
i miss anne2.
i miss tine2.
i miss liz.
i miss tien2.

i duno y..i'm homesick..

i miss baby.my adopted son..
i miss mamak.
i miss bapa.
i miss daph2.
i miss leo.
i miss yen2.
i miss donna.

come hug me.

suddenly.
i feel like..
erm..angau..
to him.
with his noty thinking.
i know it's wrong...
try to get a chance.
acc me when i'm alone.
when i woke up at dawn.
watch mv he din like.
haha..
sot me.
been structed..


p/s:forgive me.

tWo i$ beTTer tH@n !...

urrrggghh..erm i'm fulled..

ate a lot zhu kiok just now..XD

my title meant was two story more better than one..haha

not 2 bf better than a bf..huhu

ok first is about global...

ABORTION!!!!

i duno why la...

dis ppl kan..love to throw their baby...

i meant their zygote or foetus...

sot maybe they all dis..

dat is ur own responsible to take care of ur baby..

not to be irresponsible to throw ur baby..

ur blood flowing in their blood vessel...

HOW COULD THOSE WHO IRRESPONSIBLE! CRUEL!

mamy dady do abortion...

i'm so sad everytime i view news n will appear news about

abortion...

after i heard a song about a campaign on anti-abortion..

i cried..

pity those deceased baby..

their momy DESTROYS THEIR SOUL...KILL THEIR OWN CHILD..

hey mothers...

don't u know u made them up...

GOD gave them soul to live in ur womb..

patiently waiting to be touch by their momy..

waiting to be grown up...

waiting to BE LOVED by their momy..

but all their wait destroyed by U!

ya maybe u feel ashamed on wat u did..

u make love with ur bf n have them...

n u were left by ur bf..

but if u r clever...

u will give birth to them...

n leave them on many shelf that built now for abandoned baby..

u should not be a moron to kill..

they need a live..

there are thousand...million...billion...many married couple who needed child..

if u give she/he to them..

u wont make any sin thou...

ya maybe..

some children might be so derhaka...like si tenggang..

but some child may be help u one day..

n u proud to have them...

i'm also not a good child..

me too will fight wit my dady mamy...

but i still love them..

i do care bout them..

they love me so much..

i'm dady mamy's girl...

over manja..

dat's y i'll be naughty some time...

but plsss..

kill ur foetus..

make u feel regret on ur lasting life...

p/s" love them as u love ur bf b4..u love ur bf until u dare to make love wit them..if u think it deeply...if u love ur baby as u love ur beloved bf..then god will love u more...pendek kata..

berani buat berani tanggung...

ok let's continue..

2nd story is about my memory..

i want to type it down..

so that 1 day..if n only if..my relation is over..i can read it here..n it can be my LESSON...

to be more matured...more independent...more careful..more loving...

in my future..

y'day..i watched...benci bilang cinta...

they ran away from home...to achieve peaceful..

then..

i remembered once..

me n him ran away from home...

i followed him..

for a week..

he had argued with his dad..n need to cool down..

1st he dont want me to follow..but i insisted..

so we went away at that evening..

he cried all the way..

i'm pity for him..but i knew his attitude..he had sensitive heart..

as we arrived..we found a hotel room to stay..

luckily we had some cash..n he brought his atm card..

next...I bought some daily use products..n my cloth..in n out..

i have to put on a budget cause his money is not so many..

he waited for me on a bench n holded my bag..

hehe...like i'm a boy n he's the girl..

then we go up n have a bath..

i tried to cool him down..his hp keep on ringing..

begging him to come home...my mom ok coz she knew dat..

we dinner wit our fren..coz luckily his cousin's gf bday...so budget keep decreasing..

huhu..

then went to a club...gambling...drinking...n chit chat..

all of them keep trying to find a chance to talk wit me bout his condition..

HAHA...funny 'em...

next day..we woke up late..n take kfc as our brkfast & lunch..

then do ntg...n check out...

after dat we went for swimming at bkt pdg..best ni..

trus at nite we clubbing agn at BED..

first tym feel so syok..coz not many peps thr..

then..we go next round n he missed throw my ring..even i pening i kept find it even knocked my head many tyms..i'm started to get mad..n he find it everywhr...he also knocked his head..

baru u tau..

lastly he n his fren cari mati2..nasib jumpa..if not kena la u..

then i mabuk again..haha

we go bck to pnmpg..

n dats the round n round of life happened when we ran away..

really susah la..

need to dig money everyday..

need to cook..

need to wash cloth..

really miskin..

only nite we be happy..

aguiii..

but

finally

we

came

home..

haha

penat my thumbs dis..need to rest n play mall world..

haha..

stay tuned..

next story again later..

coz 4 & 1/2 years..

many things happened on us...

need to refresh my mind...

ahhhhghh..penat..

bubye..

XOXO..

love: chi2