im thinking isit too hard to b patient...arggghhhh...even dat it is HELL HARD...but i need to so dat me n my ney relation will keep going on....damn....it is not a big deal if ur beloved one can celeb some important event wit u...haiiisss..im really hoping dat i can thinking lyk dat...it's not ez to b alone during ur anniversary and X'mas celebration..i dun lyk to b alone!!!!!!
i hope i can b a God juz for once to make sure my love stay wit me....
UNFORTUNATELY....
I can't ctrl him...i cant do anything to let him stay....i knew it's hard...duh.....SAkIT!!!! ATIII!!!!
knowing dat he willgone make me cry whole n8...im really hoping he can bring me along....but
situation doesn't really suit for him to bring me.... i knew dat he still "on the way" or more ngam is trying to get well wit us relation...after hurt by hurt i gave him...it's not ez for him to accept me fully...wat else i can do??? than b patient n stay strong...how hard it is i still need to wait & bcum his MOST WANTED TYPE OF GIRL OR WOMAN....he has his dream girl...and i wanted to b da gurl datplaying in his mind...leaving me is not a big deal for him cuz im not his main purpose of living...chehhh...tu ayat....hehe but it's true...im his num 4...i tot so..
for him.... 1.his own self...
2.his fairlady...even scratch a bit he oso bad mood lyk hell..
3.his family...his family's option and decision is important to him...
4.i hope so is me la...wakakka...cuz he damn luf me...kunuk...yg mcm confident btl ba.
i juz hope him to have fun thr and do watsoever things he want...as long as he doesn't forget me...ikikik...i damn luf him ohh....now im very disapointed for ever hurt his feeling....mayb if i dun do dat he sure tambah syg me kan...btw wat else i can do.....happened w/out my brain turning 360 dgree...damn!
long story short....im now just have to b patience...keep on waiting him to love me again....do the best to amaze him...
everyday seems lyk we guin thru great relation just hope it will retain...
uikkkk...day after 2mrw is CHRISTMAS ..and OUR 3RD ANNIVERSARY...me n my ney..hehe
juz can celeb wit my small2 family...gotta post da events on dat day...on 26 of dec will b my cuzzy memel wedding reception...must enjoy so wony cry during da day cus missing my beloved ney....duh lo vun khong...u leave me lehhh...hard oh neyy...hope 4 days pass so soon...a.s.a.p is better..so i can be relieve when my dear home ody..haha i must punished him buy me stuff from
singapore..huh biar dia...gotta badly missing him tu....aiyo...
Circumtances of life are hard to predict...sometym we are at top but sometym might at below...just lyk rolling ball....but da most important is be patient and live ur life.... I accept my disaster once ago...it's hurt me badly...but after dat i saw light dat lead me into soso life...now im happy..even bakal kena kasi tinggal..hehehe
ahhhhh....duno wat to say ody lor...i saw sadness n happiness at my side of true real life....
yang penting chill wit ur love ones.....waiting him come back...huhu XOXO>..
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Sunday, December 20, 2009
LuRvE PrObLeMa...hisss
suddenly dis week bcum love trouble week...
not for me...but my hubby's fren n cuzzy..both got prob...da boys din noe wat dey did dat making their gurl angry...dis make me awake...me oso lyk dat..even my ney din do anythng wrong if i dun shuang i will burst up....
ACTUALLY!!!
dat's a no no in a relationship...we shud more udrstnd eachother even deeper...it's love's rule...
dun follow ur tot but folow ur heart...when a day ur bf noe dat u can simply udrstnd him..he will
make a better relation wit u...it's hard..i knew cuz gurl r not 'mellable' ....
wat i've mean here gurls r very sensitive...even a small matter can be a reallly big matter...not evryone la...i juz saw it in myself...if and only if i can ctrl myself a bit..i think i will have a goo relation wit my ney...
im sad when i saw and heard my frens express their sad feeling bcuz of their relation not stable ody...i juz can't stand to watch sum1 cry...its make me hurt too...cuz i ever hurted my ney until he wana suicide and make his body's hurt....juz bcuz i made a big mistakes...
for sumtym...me n my bf broke up cuz i ever cheated on him....then he try to have a new relation wit a gurl...bt he still finding me n care about me so much...so i've made a promise to him dat i will wait for him...but suddenly he din find me cuz his gurl was really a jealousy person...
so he left me lyk dat...but im HURT! FELT BETRAYED!!...it's damn bad....when lui came to me...i juz get him cuz i tot he can heal my pains..
BUT!!!!! my ney knew it...since now i duno how he knew dat...i've been secretive to him...i still love him n still scare dat he will get angry wit me if he 'kedapatan' bout me.....im totally juz make lui as my lonely partner...sorry to say but dat's wat i did...my heart and soul all are given to
LO VUN KHONG...a tatoo to me....he is my only love...i've never been in love until i met him...
one night he find me without any cloth at 1a.m at my house...then he started to scolded me...
after dat he tried to suicide in front of me...he drunk evrynyt cuz cant slp well...he met me olmost every midnyt...he did gave me wat i want....
he gave me a love chain on 9sept 09....he gave me a gold ring on 26sept 09....I LOVE BOTH!!!
dat's make me realisedhow big is his ove to me..
after sumtym....on 10 oct 09...i gave him a chance...we started again...and it may quite weird..haha he really treated me unfair sumtym but suddenly he had changed dis few days....
hehee he bcum more loving and silly....he dun even get angry wit me.....yeahhhhhhh!!!!!
our love is flying in the sky.......
he make silly faces when i cried...hahaha i hope diz will retain forever.......i love him so much....
psssstt...actually im still wondering why he'd changed....im scare to lost him again...
MAY GOD BLS OUR RELATION>>>>>chi khong...25dec 09 wil b our 3rd year aniversary..
P/S: i've shared my story cus i want my fren can achieved a good relation lyk b4....why can retain wat u all have ody...b4 u are loving couple dat i think is a role model to evry1...but u must take a good care in ur relation ven it is hard to do...u both love each other...i knew it...so plsss...
dun make a fast decision w/out think twice....i hope da best for both my fren dat is da guys....
gurl cheer up....both my babe oso....gv tym n forgiveness is da best cure....god bles u guys...
not for me...but my hubby's fren n cuzzy..both got prob...da boys din noe wat dey did dat making their gurl angry...dis make me awake...me oso lyk dat..even my ney din do anythng wrong if i dun shuang i will burst up....
ACTUALLY!!!
dat's a no no in a relationship...we shud more udrstnd eachother even deeper...it's love's rule...
dun follow ur tot but folow ur heart...when a day ur bf noe dat u can simply udrstnd him..he will
make a better relation wit u...it's hard..i knew cuz gurl r not 'mellable' ....
wat i've mean here gurls r very sensitive...even a small matter can be a reallly big matter...not evryone la...i juz saw it in myself...if and only if i can ctrl myself a bit..i think i will have a goo relation wit my ney...
im sad when i saw and heard my frens express their sad feeling bcuz of their relation not stable ody...i juz can't stand to watch sum1 cry...its make me hurt too...cuz i ever hurted my ney until he wana suicide and make his body's hurt....juz bcuz i made a big mistakes...
for sumtym...me n my bf broke up cuz i ever cheated on him....then he try to have a new relation wit a gurl...bt he still finding me n care about me so much...so i've made a promise to him dat i will wait for him...but suddenly he din find me cuz his gurl was really a jealousy person...
so he left me lyk dat...but im HURT! FELT BETRAYED!!...it's damn bad....when lui came to me...i juz get him cuz i tot he can heal my pains..
BUT!!!!! my ney knew it...since now i duno how he knew dat...i've been secretive to him...i still love him n still scare dat he will get angry wit me if he 'kedapatan' bout me.....im totally juz make lui as my lonely partner...sorry to say but dat's wat i did...my heart and soul all are given to
LO VUN KHONG...a tatoo to me....he is my only love...i've never been in love until i met him...
one night he find me without any cloth at 1a.m at my house...then he started to scolded me...
after dat he tried to suicide in front of me...he drunk evrynyt cuz cant slp well...he met me olmost every midnyt...he did gave me wat i want....
he gave me a love chain on 9sept 09....he gave me a gold ring on 26sept 09....I LOVE BOTH!!!
dat's make me realisedhow big is his ove to me..
after sumtym....on 10 oct 09...i gave him a chance...we started again...and it may quite weird..haha he really treated me unfair sumtym but suddenly he had changed dis few days....
hehee he bcum more loving and silly....he dun even get angry wit me.....yeahhhhhhh!!!!!
our love is flying in the sky.......
he make silly faces when i cried...hahaha i hope diz will retain forever.......i love him so much....
psssstt...actually im still wondering why he'd changed....im scare to lost him again...
MAY GOD BLS OUR RELATION>>>>>chi khong...25dec 09 wil b our 3rd year aniversary..
P/S: i've shared my story cus i want my fren can achieved a good relation lyk b4....why can retain wat u all have ody...b4 u are loving couple dat i think is a role model to evry1...but u must take a good care in ur relation ven it is hard to do...u both love each other...i knew it...so plsss...
dun make a fast decision w/out think twice....i hope da best for both my fren dat is da guys....
gurl cheer up....both my babe oso....gv tym n forgiveness is da best cure....god bles u guys...
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
NewBiE
chi-chi Suddenly
I felt dat wanna start to blog...it's appear to my mind dat i need to share some of my
SILLY ! SAD! BAD! HAPPY!
Or
even my LOVE! moment...hehe
I chosed my blog's title as "love me or hate me" coz we might not realise how ppl will look or
thinking bout us...somemay lyk us but some may not...ppl will owez judge book by it's cover yeahhh...i really really really dun hope dat i'm gonna be hated by some ppl...so let's read
bout my story towards my own real life ANDDD CHILLLL..
XOXO..muacccss
p/s: dis blog gonna b a lil bit lame coz im kinda noob bout handling IT...hehehe
About ME
I'm Chi-chi..alferalyn.. I'm 17...Im chinese mix wit dusun iban.... ppl juz tot dat im a 'rojak'...jkjk...im taken...huhu taken by mr.lo vun khong...dat's all... ^^
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