Honest to have a happy life or lie to make a sad to happy situation?hard to detect someone feeling ya...
either they like it or not...
we just can predict but we still not confirm it..
when a time u have the chance to talk n be honest..let it be...forget bout the impact..
u will feel much more better after dat..
i lost everything when i don't realise it..
i tot when he try to take me back n separate louis from me..
i really tought that his love towards me as big as ocean...as tall as mountain..
but all i knew now that it is wrong..
deep in his heart there are no more me..
im so dissapointed..
but ya..
it is because of me..my fault for being so cruel..so nasty...so naughty..
and now i deserved this kind of life..
i lived with a man that only pity on me..and live a life w/out love..
am i happy?
ya..i do so...on my physical..
in my mentality...it is hurt...
what else i can do?
as im happy with him..
and i still love him..
i am the mistress...
but i should accept it..
maybe time will cure everything..
sayang..u ask me to stay until i can't stand it anymore...u r not bad..u r good..ya everyone blamed on u...but the truth is my fault...i will stand until the time end...
maybe sooner or later i will leave..to give u a space to live w/out my control...to let u have a new love..just be patient and wait...we will separate..i made my mind to put an expired date for our relation..so that u will be more happier...
now...he don't even have mood to hold my hand..to bring me for outing..to hug me..to kiss me...to sleep beside me..to cheer me up when im crying..all he can do is smile to me..make me feel comfort n warm..n protected..but true...i can't feel any love again...all he said was true..he can't force himself any longer...but i knew he try even that is too hard for him...all that he want is a lil freedom n care..he need a space to breath...but now he gave me a chance to not too depending on him..so that when he with another girl i won't get hurt..
it's already too much for u to help me..
it's already too many u care me..
it's already too long for us together..
it's already a lot of love u gave me..
but me never give u more than a word as u needed..
I DO LOVE U..
I DO WANT BE WITH U UNTIL THE END OF TIME..
I DO TO BE UR WIFEY,GF,FREN & LOVER..
but u should have a better life w/out me..
i dun deserve u since we known each other...
4 years meant a lot to me..but hurt a lot to u..
i knew that so i decided an alternative way in our relation..
sayang..wait ahh..u will be happy soon...=()..T.T
