How R U chi? I'm fine...

Actually I am so lazy to talk about love...
coz..
there is no reason..
But love problem is the hardest to settle..

I'm taking a step back..
coz..
I want my life..
I don't rather to take any risk again..
I told u we will be break up..
I said it..
I meant it..
I said it proudly..

there's no problem between me and him..
We are DAMN HAPPY and more love..

but it is dull..
and black..
when he are trying to jump into a new career..
which for me I've been support him to do..

it just u don't take our relation seriously maybe..
it's not now I want to end all this..
It is going-to-be if and only if u are turning to be a model..

cause..
I knew in this industry u need a perfect girl to be by your side..
not me the ugly one..
I'm not the one..
Our difference are too big..
I am ugly..
U are the handsome one..

I feel that U are so stupid when U ignore Yvonne..
One of the model in Malaysia..
just for me the ugly duckling..
She is so nice
and absolutely PERFECT..
I don't know what happen to ur brain..

So I decide to make this hard decision..
Just for our own happiness and secure..

I can imagine how it will be..
I knew..
Don't say u won't but u did it too..

I am stop hoping to get married with a model..
I don't want..
Cause I knew I will be more hurt if u leave me when u are achieving ur glamourous...

So far I am living in this peace and full of love life..
But when u are in modeling..
I can feel the bitterness in life that will be happen..

So sorry..
I am loving u..
I am adore u..
I am proud of u..
I am care of u..
I am happy with u..
I am blessed with u..

But I know somehow someday..
It will be ended..
U need a right girl..
U need a MRS. RIGHT..

For sure.. I am 100% loving u.. no words can describe how I love u.. It can't be measure.. I leave all my teen just for u.. Even our fall and up are very hard for me to face it.. But I still love u just the way u are.. U are bloody hell.. U are the most creapiest one.. U are the evil.. But none of it can't change my love for u.. U have been so hard to let me turn to u and love u.. We have face all the hurt I gave u and U gave me.. The journey never been so easy for both of us.. We are dying to protect our love.. We give up and stand up.. and tears always follow us in the year 2008-2009.. I make a tattoo of ur name when I only 15 in 2007.. U try to kill urself in front of me.. If I didn't take way the knife I think I will be alone till now.. We sacrifise ourself in 2006 December 25.. Which is the dumbest thing ever happen.. We are torn and dying.. The first man to kiss me, to cry badly in front of me..Came to me every night since 2007-2010.. I move in 2010 just for ur checking..It's been 5 years.. and I listen to many sources that fifth Years are the hardest year and U will be have the chances to break up.. I don't hope for it but I can hear the evil talk already..Our story never end.. Everyday we have a new story..today story : I am leaving but U haven't see me and I think U are forgot and don't care.. so goodbye my sayang.. For sure// I LOVE U SO MUCH L>V>KHONG..utin belingkuk..


p/s : LOve is like a rollercoaster.. up and down.. happy and scare.. =) I am fine..