speechless..

I HOPE U WILL READ THIS..

i hate being ignore by u..

i duno wat happened to u..

day by day...
im getting more hurt..

sometimes when u r in good condition u treat me like a baby...

sometimes u hate me..

now it's getting worst..
tomorrow is ur bday i tot we will celebrate it together but ....
u said...
'u r not invited to my bday party'
his 21st bday will be celebrate in a big ceremony..
fun right?
but i'm not invited...(-.-')

last nite he sleep beside me..
but no touch...no kiss...
he ignored me..
he dont want me to hug him..
or else he will say 'nanti gf sy marah'

damn...

what's on ur mind?

maybe it's my fault cause i don't leave him..

i'm sad but i can't cry anymore..
i duno why..
i can't put a tears..
it's just anger fulfilled me..

GOD..show me the way..
i need to leave as he want it..
but i can;t do it..

why me?
i begin to become crazy..moron..

hate myself so much....
i'm hurt n tired of all the lie..

i want to go...
far far away..
but my feet so hard to mve on...
my heart so hard to apart..

my mind hecked...
& i exhausted...
blur to think i would cry so loud tonight n tomorrow...

i just remembered last year he had a fun with her gf
celebrating his bday..
but me n him..
is two ppl...
no celebration..
full of hurt n hateness..

i rather he keep on dating his ex..
i wish so...
coz that make him more happier than recently...

HATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FOR WHY
I LOVE U SO BADLY AT THIS MOMENT....